when I first you know my first few
months with David Flair it was
horrendous and I can't even watch the
stuff that I do oh why did you
eventually leave w you know my back of
course there was no way there's no way
that I would ever take a bump again and
um you know I just kind of dealt with it
and then it got to the point where I'd
be in the middle of a match and I'd be
so afraid it would walk up and I
wouldn't be able to move and so then I
started you know here and there I'd I
started you know taking vicodin to go
wrestle right and that happened a few
times and then um I was supposed to do a
match you know a dark match I think that
TV and I finally went to Johnny and I
just said look I can't my back hurts so
bad I need to go home and do therapy or
something and they sent me home and the
therapy just aggravated it more no
amount of therapy was gonna help but I
had a ruptured disc and it was
completely collapsed well and they had
to go in and replace it with something
else and it was just from you know I'm
sure I had a bad back to begin with but
it was just from the trauma of years of
wrestling and taking bumps which is just
crazy because I didn't even do anything
really that crazy but so you can't even
like look back and say alright this is
when it probably happen it just was just
from bumping over time right now there's
nothing that they could do to correct
your back it's pretty much just oh well
they went they went in and replace the
disc and you know hopefully over time
it's only been three months hopefully
over time it'll heal right we'll see do
you have any ever desires to return to
the wrestling business well you know
what I do miss it I miss a lot of things
about being in the wrestling business
the biggest thing that I miss is walking
out into an arena full of people and
just feeling that energy but part of the
reason why I left is that I will never
be able to give the fans what I want to
give them I don't want to be the girl
that's hanging on and I don't want to be
the girl that walks out there every
night goes like this because what's that
doing for me isn't doing anything for
anybody and I'm
you know I wanted to be the Women's
Champion and if I couldn't at least work
to that goal why was I there right