I felt like I was casted out from a
church right I felt like I was
invalidating from that no more and as
the years passed by I joined the
motorcycle club a one percenter club
that I go so deep into it that to me I
knew it as a Brotherhood May 5th I got
arrested in 2014. I had four felony
charges assault terrorist threats
Vanishing a knife gang enhancement and I
remember being in jail sitting in my
bunk and I just remember shaking my head
my God I'm here because I'm not walking
with you I'm doing it my way but my way
is just taking me to jail if it's not
going to be jail it's going to be death
and when I'm asking God for direction my
mom invited me to Mexico there was this
pastor there and I remember seeing them
preach as I get to Mexico as I'm walking
through the doors I start crying I'm
seeing my mom pray for a woman I'm
seeing this Brothers Christ laying hands
on the man and as my mom walks back to
me I remember hugging my mom crying on
her shoulder telling Mom
this is where God has called me to do
I was born in Los Angeles California
with the mother that accepted Christ you
know and I was in her womb when I was
like seven months in her room
she accepted Christ and I came into this
Earth in 1988 of June 15. and my mother
going to church always took me to church
as a newborn
you know which my father didn't want
nothing from God you know my mom's
family a lot of them were Believers
followers of Christ
so I was brought up in a Christian home
you can say a mother I was talking to me
about the word of God putting worship
music you know trying to keep the peace
and trying to bring my father to the
waves of Christ which
you know later on you know years passed
by and you know my mom had her second
child which my brother and then he had
she had my sister which were three
siblings in total growing up in the land
Empire after we moved from Los Angeles I
was about five years old and I remember
going to school and going to church and
my mom will always try to keep those
together protected from any harm from no
one to come and hurt us as children you
know which we know the devil came to
steal to kill and destroy so at a young
age you know I used to have family
members come over the house cousins and
at age five I had an experience where I
got molested by a cousin of mine and I I
didn't understand you know I just
thought it was something to do and you
know which things happen at that time
you know which later on my mom found out
and I kept quiet from it you know I
didn't know how to talk about it or
speak about it as I'm growing up so I
kept this resentment in me and her hurt
that I know there was something not
right about being touched as a child you
know and later on you know you know I
just had this thing to tell my cousin
one day and ask him why'd you do that
had my cousin responded with the word
saying well it was done to me by a
family member so he passed it on to me
you know it's like a chain an attachment
you know which I knew at that time was I
had to bring it up because now I'm going
to live with this forever in my heart
so I felt free from at the time and I
was like whoa I got to move on from this
and I forgave my cousin at a young age
you know and and I kept going on forward
my life which later on you know growing
up my mom never wanted me to do drugs my
mom never wanted me to join gangs me who
she would always tell me me who you need
you need God in your life you need to go
to church with me so then I got
introduced playing the drums in church
and I started serving in a church you
know playing the drums at a young age
but then later on you know there was the
world too at the same time that I got
introduced to drugs got introduced to to
weed I got introduced to cocaine I got
introduced to math to alcohol all at
once everything just kept coming at me
just at once just getting hit with these
decisions I was making you know and and
doing them then later on I found myself
deep into drugs at a young age but still
going to church so I had one foot in
church and one foot in the world and and
Edwin real quick the introduction of all
of these things where was that was this
just a product of your environment where
you you know interested where was all of
that coming from when I got introduced
to drugs it all started in high school I
used to ditch school at a young age I
didn't want nothing to do with school I
thought being accepted by kids or or
being smart I thought I was going to be
made fun of you know which actually
being smart was actually the best thing
to do because me ignoring the things of
school I even dropped out of school you
know I just wanted to be accepted it
felt like I was a cool kid the whole
time which reality you know all these
decisions that that led me to this you
know was just people were doing things
like this and I got introduced to these
drugs and and things in life by
following the wrong people which this
whole time my mom was trying to lead me
to follow Christ and I kept ignoring
that walk you know which was right in
front of me the whole time my mom was a
perfect example which I ignored that
perfect example which was my mother and
as time was going on you know you know I
left the house at age 17 you know me and
Mama had a big argument you know so I
was pretty much living with my dad at
the time and I seen my dad selling drugs
doing things that I never thought I
would see and doing drugs at the same
time I saw my dad doing them and to me
it was like well you know my dad's doing
drugs I could do drugs more and more so
I started consuming cocaine at a young
age to age 17. so I'm away with my
father I will even steal his drug just
for me to take it and use it and go give
it to my friends at the time that I used
to hang out with then later on at you
know as years go by at age 19 I can't
get away from cocaine and I kept doing
it and doing it until this one night I
remember hanging out with some friends
at the time I remember finishing a whole
bag of cocaine which in the streets is
known as an eight ball and I want you to
go ask for more cocaine for one of my
friends I go hey man can I can I have
some more of that cocaine and I remember
doing those last three lines in the
bedroom I had my own mirror and I had
them lined up and I did them but
something felt different
something didn't feel right that's my
heart was beating fast and Fast I
started panicking something deep inside
me kept telling me you're gonna die
that's it you're not going to survive
this and they rushed me to the hospital
once they saw me having these shakes and
they rushed me to the hospital I
remember making it to the hospital right
on time as I get to the hospital I just
remember waking up on the hospital bed
and this young nurse comes up to me and
goes Edwin if you keep doing this you
could die
and I remember just looking at myself
and looking at one of my friends waiting
for for me right there next to me and
just shaking his head too like saying
what are we doing and later on after I
got out the hospital I went to go say
sorry to my mom one night and my mom
said it's okay me oh you know you need
help and as I'm crying out for help you
know this I didn't know what kind of
help I needed throughout the time but as
I'm asking my mother if I could stay
there with her because I couldn't go
back where I was living I couldn't go
back and hang out with those friends I
used to have at the time I just felt
ashamed I felt embarrassed for what
happened to me I didn't know how to feel
accepted I didn't know how to go about
it and my mother told me that day that I
went to go apologize to her because me
and my mom had a big argument where I
would disrespect my mother I would curse
her out I would say evil things towards
my mom really disrespectful that night
actually my mom told me that I couldn't
stay with her because I was asking if I
could stay there with her and she told
me he can't the house is full your
uncle's here you're answer here so I
went to go stay at a family's member's
house but before I went to a state of
families member's house I was already
living after the hospital situation I
was living with a friend of mine and it
was two girls that lived there and
one-on-one worshiped the Santa Muerte
which a lot of people know as a Reaper I
remember I was curious about it you know
I was like well why do you worship that
you know why why you're into that and I
remember it was on top of a chimney
Shadow Water next to it like glass water
next to it an Apple so she was giving
offerings to this Reaper you know she
had money she had things that she'll
give it to it as a return or or a
promise that she made with this Reaper
and one day I go well what do I got to
do to to to to to receive something from
it so I was trying to look for a
blessing I was trying to look for
something more powerful for me to
overcome whatever I was facing at the
moment and I was looking for help but I
didn't know how to go about it still
which I ignored the things of God as a
young child you know I I was Desiring to
follow the world instead of following
God now Edwin in this time when you
would think about God if if at all what
did you think about it because you had
an uh some type of understanding or
awareness that there is God but when you
would think about it what would you
think when I used to think about God I
would just think of them like God
doesn't hear me and I didn't want
nothing to do with God you know after
with the things I went through as a
child the things that I saw in a broken
home you know seeing my father beat up
my mom I felt like there was no God like
God it was just a story to me you know
growing up in a household where you saw
just parents arguing I saw my father in
and out of jail and I thought that was
the life to live so every time I see
these dark moments you know I want to
cry out to God but same time I didn't
know how to cry out to God I remember
going to church as a child then I didn't
want nothing to do majority of times
nothing to do with church or with God to
me was embarrassing to me felt like I
was going to be made fun of you know
because my mother always played
Christian music and you know I remember
her taking me to even to school as a
child you know and she'll have her
worship music on I'm kind of like try to
slide down the car so no one of my
friends would see me you know I was
embarrassed you know to to let my
friends know that I knew about God or I
went to church and played the drums in
the church so from seeing all that stuff
that I was going through you know when I
was going through my dark moments
growing up and trying to reconcile my
relationship with my mother she told me
that one night that I won't go to to
talk to you when I said sorry to her for
all the things I'd done and she told me
that I needed God I needed help I told
her I don't need God I sure don't
ignored her and and cursed her out again
and I got mad I was like well son I know
about this Christian recovery home you
know and I was like I don't need no
Recovery Home you know after my overdose
I told her I don't need no Recovery Home
you know I'm okay but the thoughts that
were coming to my mind I felt like she
was trying to take me to like a mental
institute I was going to be wrapped
around which the enemy was lying to me
you know the enemy was making me feel
like that's not the place to go so later
on you know when my mother didn't let me
go stay there with her I moved in with
those friends of mine two two friends of
mine that that went on worship the Santa
Muerte known as the Reaper so when I was
curious to know what was this image or
what this spiritual thing they were into
I asked her well what do you do well you
got to give it an offering and it'll
give you a blessing you know you just
gotta do it whatever it asks you to do
so I remember my offering was a
cigarette and I don't remember telling
exactly the reaper what I wanted but I
remember something different was going
on in my life something Supernatural I
don't have the words to explain it but I
remember seeing visions of myself even
sitting down and like this as I'm
talking right now looking at my ass
looking at my feet seeing videos of my
feet my hands turning into this Reaper
this piece with cloths and I and I
remember getting panic attacks from it
and I'll get up and they'll had to rush
me to the hospital my friends too at
that time which they thought I was dying
or something but not was just a panic
attack
which the enemy put fear in my mind so I
didn't know how to go about it so as I'm
trying to look for help going to the
hospital none of this was working for me
I remember one night falling asleep at
that house I was staying in where the
reaper was being worshiped I remember as
a child my mom will put worship music
and that night for some reason I
couldn't fall asleep
and I remember that night I turned on
the radio and I went to a Spanish radio
station and put some Spanish Christian
music and I was able to rest
and as I'm resting you know right there
that girl that worshiped the reaper came
into my room and goes can you turn off
that music is bothering me and I
remember turning the music real low and
it something deep inside me told me well
this is not of God you know there's
something going on I don't understand I
just didn't understand what's going on
in my life at the moment
I remember the next day from that
experience I woke up and I went to go
try to look for help again with my
mother and my mother told me well son
you know you need to look for God she
tells me again I'm like no
I don't need God so then I left my
mother's house I went to one of my
aunt's house and the same thing goes
again my aunt tells me about God when
she tells me about God I had another
panic attack even my aunt freaked out
she didn't know what was going on with
me she even gave me a Coca-Cola it had
caffeine obviously it just made the
panic attack even harsh and I remember
just crying out to God right there just
saying God you know God I need help but
I just felt like God wasn't listening to
me I feel like there was no answer to
this what I was facing or going through
so I asked my aunt Anne can I stay here
at your house because I didn't want to
go back to the house the visions that I
was having you know I was just scared I
don't know what was happening to me
something Supernatural was happening to
me you know I feel like there was a
spirit on top of me I felt like I was
seeing these visions of me just turning
into a creature a beast something not of
God at all and I remember that night
staying at my aunt's house and when one
of my cousins in the living room were
watching a scary movie which everybody
knows the exorcism as I'm watching this
movie I remember when the girl wakes up
at three in the morning possessed
ignoring the movie I fell asleep
the same situation that the girl went
through in that movie I woke up by three
in the morning as well and I woke up
with a panic attack I go to the restroom
try to wash my face trying to play it
off I did not understand what was going
on at the moment but I did feel this
cold feeling this cold chills that I got
in the restroom I was washing my face as
I'm looking at myself in the mirror I
look at myself like yellow I look pale
felt like I couldn't breathe felt like
something was just making me lose my
breath and as I look up to the Mirror
I see a black shadow over me and I
remember running out of the restroom
running screaming waking up my uncle my
aunt at the house
help me I need help and as I'm there
crying my hand comes up to me Edwin are
you on drugs again I was like no Thea
I'm not on drugs I haven't done drugs
ever since my overdose
and I remember just falling there on my
knees and I cried out to God and telling
God help me God help me I screamed out I
remember screaming there asking God to
help me and I felt this peace
and I went to go lay down again I was
able to fall asleep
and that next day I called my mom in the
morning I told Mom take me to that
Christian recovery home you told me
about and my mom came right away that
same day I waited for her to get off
work I was impatient but I was impatient
I was starting to hear voices I thought
I was going crazy my mom got there she
picked me up with another member from
the church as we're driving back to Los
Angeles from the Inland Empire to Los
Angeles to Inglewood California this was
September 17 of 2007 when my mom took me
to the Christian recovery home and you
know as Victory Outreach Ministries as
we're going on the freeway I remember
hearing these voices telling me jump out
the car jump out and I remember I didn't
even have my seat belt on that I grabbed
the sit ball I tied myself and just hold
on to the Super Bowl because I felt this
force that was scaring me and making me
want to feel like I had to jump out the
car and I thought I was just losing my
mind I wanted to tell my mom and that
sister like at that moment like there's
something going on but I felt like they
were going to look at me like I was
crazy that enemy kept telling me in my
head like ain't nobody gonna believe you
so I kept it to myself so we made it to
the Christian recovery home it was late
night around nine o'clock at night
remember there's two members from the
recovery home they opened the door they
welcomed me in and they asked me if I
ever accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord
and Savior and I was never led to Christ
but I grew up in a church you know but I
never knew how to accept Jesus Christ as
my Lord and Savior and yeah I did the
the prayer I accepted Christ as my Lord
and Savior but the fight wasn't over
whatever I was facing or a spiritual
attack I was going through I remember
accepting Christ that day I felt peace
but at the home the recruitment home
that had a thing called Three Days Grace
which the third day after the third day
they'll send you to work with the man in
the home and I remember just staying
there in my bunk those three days I was
Restless I couldn't sleep you know I was
tormented from this spiritual attack
these voices that I was facing and I
remember the second day that I was in
the home I was sitting down in my bunk
trying to read the Bible but I didn't
know how to read the Bible
and I remember hearing these voices
again there was a window open to the
right of me and I remember hearing the
voice telling me jump out kill yourself
I was in the second floor and so I'm
hearing this word keep repeating and
repeating telling me suicide suicide and
I was hearing it for one year to the
other year going back and forth that it
freaked me out that I got so scared that
I ran downstairs where all the men of
the home were at and I ran to them and I
ran to the director of the home and I
told them hey I'm hearing these voices I
need help and they all got up and they
all started praying for me rebuking
whatever was around me and I remember
just feeling this peace and I was able
to go back to my bunk now the third day
comes at the recovery home I'm still
scared to go to sleep I was scared to
close my eyes because I thought I was
going to see something
I thought this spiritual attack I was
facing was just going to take control of
me and I had this fear but that same
night on the third night remember
falling asleep and I woke up again at
three in the morning
but this time it was not a fear but I
remember telling God that night God help
me
and when I told God to help me fell
asleep again I was like asleep for 10
minutes I believe and I woke up again
and I heard a deep voice tell me it's me
and that voice that soft voice that
talked to me I was able to fall back to
sleep
and I remember I woke up again like the
third time the third time I woke up I
woke up shivering I woke up with sweats
my body was going through a shake
and I just remember just shaking but
then I fell asleep so the next day when
I woke up I woke up anxious wanted to
seek the kingdom of God in his
righteousness I wanted to read the Bible
something was just different because I
felt God come into my life that night I
felt the presence of God that morning
and I started searching for God I was in
the recovery home for a year after the
recovery home I left the home I became a
youth leader in San Bernardino
California and I was leading young men
to Christ I was there in the church for
a year I was serving God for two years
straight but once again when I was
serving God for two years straight you
know I started finding myself being lazy
I stopped reading my word I wasn't
praying as much no more and I remember
scriptures you know when Jesus talked to
the disciples telling them pray so you
don't fall into temptation
but I stopped praying and little by
little I started walking away from the
grace of God I started walking from the
pressures of God I started going back
into the world drinking again
and when at this time when when you are
starting to take these steps back you're
obviously surrounded by leaders right
and you've been put in a position of
leadership so what was their response
what was the church uh response as they
were seeing you
um go back you know surrounded by
leaders the pastor there was another
leader with me in the as a youth leader
which none of them reached out to me I
didn't I didn't understand I just felt
like well I'm backslit you know and
nobody wants me back in the church I
felt like there was no way back I felt
like I was outcasted from the church I
try to go back to the church but I
didn't feel accepted no more I felt like
they looked down on me but I know it was
the enemy making me feel that I wasn't
wanting no more the enemy wanted me to
stay in my sin stay in the mud again I
was like a dog that returned back to his
vomit
so I was there for many years and that's
I find myself walking away from the Lord
and drinking again when I turned 21
years old I catch my first DUI with six
violations for my past that I never
tooken care of because I was in rehab on
a Christian recovery home and in a right
coming out of rehab you know I started
working started working with the church
but I never took care of those
violations I had from the past so
everything added up with that DUI then
they gave me time in jail then I met the
mother of my kids before I went in jail
though while I'm in jail I'm making
phone calls calling my mom and my mom
told me you see for walking away from
God look what happens and I was like
yeah whatever you know I didn't want
nothing with God no more I was too deep
into the world again and as I knew
scripture I ignored it and I remember
reading Hebrews I remember reading all
the scriptures talking about walking
away from God it's like recrucifying
Christ again
and I just used to shake my head I'm
like well I did what I did I'm hearing
sin again and so I'm sitting in jail
calling the mother of my kids she told
me she was pregnant I got worried I said
man I'm about to be a father and thank
the Lord that I I came out right on time
to see my child be born I still didn't
go back to Christ though when I got out
of jail I just kept drinking kept
partying kept doing things that were not
pleasing to God at all you know I walked
away from God for 12 years and those two
years that I walked away from God
backsliding having sex with different
women it was worse than the first time
and that's when I started realizing what
the word of God says is real when that
Spirit leaves that body and goes roaming
around trying to look rest in another
body or another house and that Spirit
comes back and finds it empty it's going
to be worser than the first time I
started carrying guns then later on in
those years that I'm walking away from
the Lord I catch my first domestic
violence I got in a big argument with
the mother of my kids now we have two
children together at the time and
there's someone walking away from God I
remember there was nights that would
come home drunk and I remember knowing
that I knew the way and there was
moments I started crying there was a
moment that I started crying and telling
God God I know I'm far away God I know
that I walked away from you
but then I still wouldn't repent though
but I'll talk to God but I wouldn't
repent
I just felt like there was no way back I
felt like I was so deep into my sin
again I felt like I was stuck there in
this mud so as years passed by before my
second child was born I always wanted to
feel validated accepted by other people
I felt like I was casted out from a
church right I felt like I was
invalidated from that no more then as
the years passed by before my second
child was born I joined the motorcycle
club a one percenter club that I go so
deep into it that to me I knew it as a
Brotherhood as I was living that life
traveling from different state to state
riding motorcycles May 5th I got
arrested in 2014. I had four felony
charges assault terrorist threats
Vanishing a knife gang enhancement
I fought that court case for four years
I got slapped in the wrist with an
assault did community service and I was
like oh well whatever I don't mind going
to jail again that was my mindset it was
just hard for me to find God again in
those moments because I was going down
in and out of jail already then later on
my third child was born before the
pandemic covid hit in 2020 March 7th
2020 ended up in jail again with a
felony charges gun charges a saw gang
enhancement again another two charges
where the guy ended up in the hospital
and I remember being in jail sitting in
my bunk and I just remember shaking my
head
my God I'm here because I'm not walking
with you I'm doing it my way but my way
is just taking me to jail if it's not
going to be jail it's going to be death
just like the word of God says for the
wages of sin is death but the free gift
of God is eternal life through Jesus
Christ and I remember sitting down in my
book talking to God again here I go but
not repenting but just telling God God
if you get me out of this one I will
serve you again
so that same day I get bowed out my my
bell was real high I was able to bail
out and I remember getting home hugging
my my youngest and my my older children
and hugging the mother of my kids I
couldn't even say sorry to that I was
ashamed I was embarrassed for the things
that I put them through from not being
there for them for pleasing other things
other than pleasing God or pleasing my
children
I was ignoring what God has given me I
was ignoring the blessings God gave me I
was leading them to destruction too
just the way I was living my life they
were going to be led the same way but in
the end of 2020 as Kobe is passing by
I'm waiting for my court trial and I
kept checking in with my bail bond agent
like hey man you know I need to go to
Mexico you know so he checked up he
checked for me on the internet you know
or the DA's office to see if I had a
court date and I remember while the bail
bond agent had me on hold I started
worrying I was like man I hope I don't
have a court date and he gets back to me
he goes Edwin Garcia um I don't see no
charges and he looked up the DA's
message the DA's office message that
they sent to them they go Garcia your
charge has been exonerated
and I remember talking to a member from
the motorcycle club I was from I go bro
can you believe you know my charge has
been exonerated and I remember the
member telling me bro cause you're
blessed and I just stopped
and I was just thinking for a moment
like man God what are you trying to do
in my life
there's something here that you're
trying to show me but I didn't listen I
kept drinking I kept doing things that
were not pleasing to God so by the end
of 2020 in December I found myself in a
situation where all these guilt started
coming to my mind all these things that
I was doing that were not pleasing to
God I remember I had this situation with
the the ex-business partner at the time
which were business partners Again by
the grace of God but me and him had an
argument which I knew he was looking for
me at one point in his life trying to
kill me you know it was a bad business
gone wrong between us and I remember I
was looking for him and I was looking
for him in the end of December and I
wouldn't hurt him so bad and I couldn't
find him I couldn't get a hold of him
something was just not letting me go to
hold them up and I remember this one
morning waking up I opened my phone and
there was this preacher sharing a
message that I opened my phone and this
preacher goes don't go there don't go
fighting this guy don't go hurting this
person that you want to hurt get down
here please and pray to God now I'm like
God this is a sign from you for me to
pray for me to look for you but I still
didn't listen to that message
but I know there was that tug in my
heart then later on when all this guilt
all these feelings were coming to my
mind started feeling depressed I started
feeling ashamed for all the things I've
done from walking away from God I
started crying out to God but I still
didn't repent I didn't know how to
repent at the moment felt like I
couldn't let go there was a fight
between me my flesh that didn't want me
to let go that wanted me to keep living
this life and in the end of 2020 I went
a whole week without eating I fell in
depression I started hearing voices that
I used to hear back then to kill myself
again
I remember driving my truck at night
coming out of work
screaming in my truck and stepping on
the gas and I wanted to crash into a
light post
and every time I try to attempt it I
just start taking a deep breath and I
couldn't do it in the morning I had to
let go of the guys and I just started
crying and I'll get home start crying
and weeping on the floor crying out to
God God help me God changed me and I
just remember just talking to God though
those whole the whole week that I didn't
eat cried out to God forgot to deliver
me for God to help me change my mind
again and as I'm reconciling with God at
the end of 2020 I asked the Lord to
return to my heart and as I'm asking God
to return into my life to come back into
my life scripture starts coming back to
my mind and I remember reading
Revelations chapter 2 verse 4 saying I
have something against you you have
forsaking your first love
and as I'm here in the spirit of God
talk to me in that moment telling me
that I've forsaken my first love I just
started crying I was telling God God
here I am use me
you brought me out of jail you brought
me out of this situation for me to serve
you again God
I'm sorry for walking away from you I
keep my life back to you my God and some
reconciling with God
started feeling the presence of God
again and I'm reading the scriptures
again where it says you know look how
far you have fallen return to the first
things you used to do where I was a
youth leader before you know and I used
to preach on the streets I used to go
into bad Delights and I remember all
this Vision started coming back to my
mind things that I had to go back and do
had scriptures returning back to to my
mind the word of God
because the word God says on John 14 26
says when The Advocate comes it will
always remind you of things that he said
so when I repented scripture just
started coming back to my mind things
that I've read the spirit of God just
took control of my mind again but I
still had a fight and let go of
something in my life something that I
fell in love with a Brotherhood that I
joined a motorcycle club I didn't know
how to go about it and I started feeling
again like man people's gonna make fun
of me but I remember reading scriptures
telling me you can't serve two masters
you can't have one foot here and a foot
over there either you're gonna serve me
or not so as the spirit of God is
talking to me I'm there weeping crying
out to God January 2021 comes I reached
out to these members talked to some
members and I told them that's it
I'm serving God and the first response I
get Edwin we respect the things of God I
gave them everything that I once had and
I let go because the word of God says
you know the cost to follow Christ is to
let go of everything give up everything
for him and follow it to deny yourself
so how to deny myself once again and let
Christ living my life now not for me to
live no more but to Christ to live in me
now and as I'm there this January 2021
I'm being remorseful I'm feeling that I
need to invest a lot of time in the
kingdom of God from all this time that I
wasted so I started just eating the word
of God eating the word of God like it
says then they seek you chapter 3 says
eat the word so I was just eating that
eating it I was getting full of the word
of God but I kept asking God like God
well show me what is it that you want me
to do give me the direction that you
want me to go from now so as I left the
motorcycle club behind and took that
step of Faith forward to follow Christ
again
no matter what I did in my past I
remember the scripture saying you know
if whoever's in Christ is a new creation
the old has passed and the new is here
so as I reconsible God from walking away
from the Lord like being a prodigal son
and returning back to the father's house
I felt welcomed by God not by no man but
by God
you know because I was always trying to
look to feel feel validated by a man or
a pastor or somebody but this time I
felt God
accepted me and telling me come as you
are no matter how far I've fallen how
short I felt from the glory of God God
still received me with arms open like
the prodigal son and I felt that Comfort
I felt that reconciliation with God and
when I'm asking God for direction my mom
invited me to Mexico to these recovery
homes that go and preach there was this
pastor there and I remember seeing them
preach as I get to Mexico and so I'm
walking through the doors I start crying
I just felt this presence of God just
sucking me into that you know and
bringing me there and I was like this is
of you God this is where you have called
me as I'm crying I'm seeing my mom pray
for a woman I'm seeing this Brothers of
Christ laying hands on the man and as my
mom walks back to me
I remember hugging my mom crying on her
shoulder telling Mom
this is where God has called me to do
so God tug into my heart that moment
telling me Edwin this is where I brought
you then later on I remember sitting
down with the pastor after service and
this pastor you know talking to me
boldly set me down next to him he goes
Edwin God has called you when he said
that I just felt confirmation from God
and this man telling me you have that
attitude that God needs that bonus to
speak up about Christ you have that
mentality which I remember the scripture
he said and I remember from years ago
where Philippians 1 21 says for me to
live is Christ and to die in this game
God is looking for man and woman they're
willing to die for Christ because we
know we die for Christ we're gaining and
I remember him talking to me pointing at
me God has called you and I remember
crying out to God and telling God here I
am use me
send me I will go like prophet Isaiah
then weeks later I'm getting invited to
the recovery homes to come and preach
but before I started preaching in the
recovery homes something deep inside me
told me go get your father my blood
father
my father was sleeping in the streets of
Tijuana
Mexico then as the weeks are passing by
I put this to pray and as I felt
strengthened up again by the Lord to go
and go get my father I told my father
about this recovery homes that we go and
preach at and but I still haven't
preached it but the pastors were
preaching there I was there helping out
and as I go looking for my dad in
Tijuana I finally found him and I took
him to go eat and I'm just speaking to
my dad directly eye to eye that God has
chosen you you know about God repent
reconcile with God and not because you
see my father cry and cry that's his
weeping right in front of me it was okay
dad let it out then later on my dad made
the decision to go with me to the
recovery home so I took him to the
recovery homes where I go with these
pastors to go preach as we're driving
out that way it was a two-hour drive my
dad was sleeping and the passenger seat
I'm even checking on my dad's post to
make sure he's alive because he's been
up nights Restless Sleepless he was
consuming a lot of math as we get to the
recovery home
I remember my dad waking up finally my
father telling me why'd you bring me
here to this place and it was not even
in the city of Mexicali was like in the
outskirts of Mexicali Mexico
and this Recovery Home looked like a
jail looked like a prison there was even
Towers you know where they had the
guards on the corners you know making
sure nobody escapes from the recovery
home and my dad just started cursing me
out that moment
and I knew it was a my father it was
something else it was not my father that
voice I was speaking through my father
it was the enemy so I just put her to
pray I put it a prayer in that moment I
said God take control of my dad my dad
started walking away from the recovery
home remember the director from the home
came out and told me hey Edwin you want
us to go get your father
and I was like it's up to you guys but
let me just tell you something I know my
father my father's not an easy guy so
they went they went in a van they went
to get my dad it was like a quarter mile
away my dad walked away from and they
all got off the van and I just remember
seeing my father swinging at these men
far away but next you know they just
clinched them took them in in the in the
van and they brought him into the home
and remember the director of the home
goes you know what Edwin it'd be better
for you not to come like in two weeks
let your dad just go through what he has
to go through and come back later and
the pastor told me at the same time too
he's like yeah we'll come back later but
when we come back later get ready
because you're gonna preach and your
dad's gonna see you preaching as those
weeks pass by it was Day of Service the
day I had to preach in Mexicali the
calling where God brought me to to go
preach out there in Mexico and I'm there
preaching I remember sharing the word of
God and I started seeing my dad broken
right there God tugging at his heart him
himself reconciling with God as well God
had to use me as a vessel to go reach
out my father and bring him out of that
lifestyle he was living as well
and later on you know as time goes by my
dad's there reading the word too I'm
they're Faithfully going to Mexico
preaching the gospel and God just
working on my life because what the word
of God says on Philippians 1 6 says he
who started a good work in you will
finish it to the end no matter what how
far or sure of the glory of God we have
fallen God still has a purpose in our
lives to reconcile us to bring us back
to Christ God is always going to come
and tug of our hearts because that's
what God was doing in my life tugging in
my heart no matter how far I walked away
from the presence of God God was still
there was still there for me right on
time to bring me out of the gutter to
bring me out of the mud to bring me out
of jail for me to be able to serve God
for me to be able to share the gospel to
all his creation because God so loved
the world that he gave his only begotten
son that whoever believes in him should
not perish but have everlasting life God
did not come into this world to condemn
the world but to save the world through
son and the son is the one that lives in
US Jesus Christ and the son is the one
who should we testify about because this
is what Christ has done in my life he
has came to restore my life to give me a
new Direction he's the one that made the
way when nobody thought there was a way
for me no more when I didn't think there
was a way God makes a way all the time
he has the power he has the authority
the control of every human's mind and
thought and heart because God has to
control
amen Edwin for for people who are
watching right now that may be in that
same state that you were uh when you
begin to go back into the world after
encountering his presence after
surrendering your life to him well what
can you say to that person that's
watching your testimony right now that's
actively in that place if you're a
person that has walked away from God
from serving God serving in a church the
words that I have in my heart to share
with you is to return to the Lord before
it's too late just like the word of God
says Revelations chapter 2 verses 4 and
5. look how far you've Fallen repent
because he's right around the corner he
could take your lap stand away and all I
could remember is the Ten virgins that
had their lamps ready and the other five
didn't let's not take this for granted
because the day of tomorrow is not a
promise but by the grace of God God's
giving you another opportunity today to
repent and to follow him once again God
doesn't want you to be in the world
God's chosen You Out Of The World God
chosen the foolish things out of the
world to shame the wise he brought you
out of the world to make you into a
child of God Edwin for the the people
who are involved
with these uh motorcycle gangs what can
you say to that person who's watching
your testimony right now maybe somebody
shared it to them maybe they just came
across it
and are actively in that place what I
got to say about motorcycle clubs
somebody that's in a club right now what
I gotta say to them is God has a plan
for your life God has a purpose for your
life
and if you're hearing this it's not a
coincidence
because God is calling you out of that
lifestyle too for you to serve God for
you to follow Jesus Christ for you to
follow the creator that created you and
to obey him
because without Christ we're nothing
but Christ you have Victory you Cobra
come just like I overcame God doesn't
want you to live in fear you can feel
validated through Christ not through the
person next to you but through Jesus
Christ
amen uh Edwin what is uh very briefly
you mentioned you have three kids what
is your relationship are you with the
same with the mother of your children
I have three children me and my wife we
got married when I reconcile with God
God restored my relationship with her
you know which she didn't know nothing
about God either and while I reconciled
with God and we got married in April of
2021 she accepted Christ too
God restored our relationship there was
a lot of hurt in the past she even
forgave me God changed her heart too
and our our bond our love our marriage
is strong you know even the ball with my
kids it's something that I don't even
want to let go you know it's the love of
God that I was able to bring the love of
God into my marriage now which me and
her didn't have the love of God when you
don't have the love of God in a marriage
you're gonna have conflict you're going
to have problems you're gonna have
desires to look at another woman another
man because when you love God you're
going to want to stay faithful to that
one person because you're faithful to
God you're not going to want to disobey
God because he who finds a wife finds
favor from God Amen Edwin who is Jesus
to you Jesus is my Lord and Savior he is
my light just like the word of God says
he is the light of the world whoever
follows them will not be in darkness but
we'll have the light of life that's who
Jesus is here's the light that came into
the world
but many didn't want to accept the light
but we they're in Christ we have the
light of the world and we could share
the light of the world to others that
need the life to come out of Darkness
that's what my Jesus is
amen
and when any last words for people who
are watching your testimony right now if
you're watching my testimony I pray and
hope this uplifts you this helps you out
to find your way back to Christ
for you to reconcile with God
for you to be directed to Christ again
no matter what who doesn't ever listen
to you or you feel that you're not
accepted by another church but let me
tell you something when you repent and
you ask for forgiveness God is there to
receive you in his arms just like Isaiah
59 verse 1 says the arm of the Lord is
never too short and it was ear never to
do to hear God is there to listen to you
God is there to stretch his arm out to
you have faith and believe with all your
heart
lastly Edwin for anybody who's watching
if you could just uh just pray for for
the viewers who are on the other screen
Heavenly Father come before you Lord in
the name of Jesus Christ my God I pray
Lord for whoever is watching this
testimony my God
that you touched their hearts my God
that you touched their minds my God that
you could renew their hearts my God that
they could draw near to you my God so
you could draw near today my God you
have the power to heal them my God you
have the authority Lord to rebuke and
Destroy and demolish any stronghold
they're facing my God or any attack from
the devil my God you have the power and
the control my God and I have lift every
person that's watching this Lord that
you give him the victory my God through
you Jesus Christ because in you my God
there is Victory and I thank you my Lord
Jesus Christ for every single person
watching this testimony in Jesus name
amen