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that's probably not good um I lo I think
I hope it's under Jeffrey's bed I could
be mistaken but guys it is a special day
today I'm feeling a little better my
hair is up it is my 10year anniversary
on YouTube and we're gonna have a little
reflection time it's going to be
nostalgic it's G to be trippy it's going
to be a little lowkey relaxed not some
crazy Montage this is a day where it's
just for me to reflect on the last 10
years cuz that's a long time that's a
long time to be doing anything to be
committed to any possible concept only
one thing 10 years um I'm going to talk
about me starting YouTube
me exper I'm going to be talking about
YouTube a lot and just how it's evolved
over the last 10 years and I'm going to
be talking about myself and how I've
evolved with it in the last 10 years why
I got started why I kept going why I'm
still going today what the future looks
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to be YouTubers or just interested in my
story or interested in what YouTube used
to look like and maybe there's something
you could learn from this I think it's
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got that out of my system juggies it's
time to go back to 2006 when I first
started YouTube woo it is a nipple J had
to get a hoodie on I've had this hoodie
I think for 10 years
too guys uh
wow 2006 that is a long ass time ago I
was I was 14 at the time I believe I was
uh 8ighth grade yeah e8th grade maybe
going into High School freshman year oh
what a freaking loser I remember I saw
youtube.com and I was like oh you know
I've seen a few cat videos and I know
that's like The Stereotype and it's like
everybody uses that same joke it's like
it's cat that's literally what was on
the website it was [ __ ] cat videos
and like the odd um I don't even know
what you'd call it there's just weird
[ __ ] on it needless to say I was always
intrigued by YouTube and I was like oh
you can upload videos here that's
interesting prior to this time period
when I was like eight or nine I would
hang out with my brother and his friends
and they would ask me to film
skateboarding videos they would just
have me hold the camera I was like yeah
sure whatever I'm here anyway not really
skateboarding so I guess I can hold
theing camera so that kind of was in the
back of my mind when I was uh looking at
youtube.com and I was like hey well I
think it'd be cool if I made some videos
I was also really big into video games I
loved Halo at the time and there was
this thing called Red versus Blue from
Rooster Teeth which was this episodic
series using Halo Machinima which I
thought was freaking awesome I was a
huge fan of like lost and other TV shows
so I was like Hey that'd be cool I don't
know I just freaking got a capture card
thing and and started doing some Halo
videos and they were they were horrible
like you go back and watch it like I'm
not going to do a clip show right now to
so I don't embarrass myself no I'm
actually totally comfortable with every
video I've ever made um the real thing
is is just like I don't like editing and
I've done so many montages of like my
history that like I know I know my
history to death and I I'll explain why
shortly yeah I was making Halo videos
and it was like ah this is this is
pretty shitty but I enjoyed doing it I
liked it there's a few here odd comments
here and there and it was fun and it's
still fun for 10 years it's been the one
thing that I still really enjoy doing
like there's been things in my life that
have come and went and I liked it for a
couple years and then I don't hell even
Halo I love it to death but Halo four
and five and then it just slowly wanes
but YouTube if anything I just feel like
it's been increasing to be able to say
that about something is I think really
special and I think you guys have
definitely helped that a lot but yeah
YouTube for me has for the last 10 years
it's always been a good time and um
that's been that was why I started it it
was curiosity and just so I could make a
video and for people to watch it granted
not many people watched it then but for
me it was a way to express myself I was
a fairly quiet kid and I felt like I had
a lot to prove as a younger brother and
I just wanted I wanted to be noticed and
when I did these videos I felt ah I can
kind of vent through them and creatively
express myself even if nobody clicked on
that [ __ ] I still felt better about
myself and I I felt accomplished and I
think that is what always has has kept
me going eventually I realized Halo
wasn't my thing I started getting into
to real life videos and and those were
it's great there were some really funny
one it was just you know like you'd hang
out with your friends some people would
go out drinking partying whatever I'm
talking yeah even in high school at
least around East Bumble that's what we
going on but this was something that me
and my friends could do and have a good
time doing and we were also getting
something done we were getting something
to show from the night it's like hey
guys we all hung out this day and we
also have this video to remember it by
and it always would stick with us so it
was great you know to do some of the old
series to tell those stories and and do
it with your friends and it was all very
innocent it was a good time no money was
involved so things were really simple
and uh everybody got along and it was
great then everybody gets their own
lives and you know it changed and it's
been changing just as YouTube has been
changing sorry if this seems this is
almost like a boogie rambling video
right now which I love it but um yeah I
don't know I thinking about YouTube how
YouTube has changed it's like it you
know YouTube was really awesome when it
first started I'm not saying it's not
now it's it's had it had to progress you
know it had to go somewhere and and it
will continue to progress I'm a little
fearful of where it's going cuz I think
where it's inevitably heading is towards
television and seeing how television is
it's very regulated it's very structured
and I like I like how YouTube is where
it's not that it's more of a wild wild
west I really enjoy that aspect of it
and creators can be very creative um
once things get more regulated along
with the internet then thinks oh what
the [ __ ] is that a giant spider holy
[ __ ] oh I'm going to be in this position
for the
remainder anyway uh like I was
saying don't hurt me please ew why do
you look like that like what made you
YouTube I am just I am fearful where
it's going I mean even just the video
with me and pickle boy fighting just got
demonetized I'm sorry but no blood was
drawn you know it was basically
wrestling I mean we never started
punching each other and that got
demonetized it's at over a million views
it's like a 30 minute video but just for
that little segment it is demonetized so
that to me is scary and especially I put
in an appeal and I'm a fairly larger
YouTube so the fact that they don't
really care is frightening to me the
fact that I had three psycho videos
demonetized and and just how things are
going and I'm sure you personally re uh
read or watched recently about how
YouTube is uh you know removing Subs
when people are releasing videos and and
the trending section is is being bought
out and I truly believe that too and
it's like things are happening with
YouTube Red you know you start to feel
it's starting to get very corporate and
ah I don't like it compared to where it
started and where it's heading it's like
there's only one place it can go and
we've seen we've seen a lot of changes
on YouTube just like I mean it used to
be a place where where skits were
popular and creativity rained and and
and now it's just like it's very click
baity it's very um it's very if you
don't clickbait you're not going to
stand out you're not going to be seen
it's very saturated it's it's very very
dogey dog YouTubers attacking other
YouTubers it's it's very crazy right now
um and it's just not the landscape it
was years ago I think this is just where
it's at and and probably where it's
heading it's going to be an interesting
uh 2017 I'm sure that's YouTube I mean
granted when YouTube first started you
couldn't get paid for this stuff so
there's definitely been great changes
the fact that I can do this for a living
is mindblowing um so let's let's get
back to to my
personal story all right I might legit
have to kill this thing cuz it's
starting to creep up towards me if you
constantly see me like out of the corner
of my eye I am watching this thing like
a haulk like an eagle all right you
going okay cool I think we're good now
the thing has went under the chair so I
was doing my videos for funsies you know
got out of high school went to college
got my film degree it was whatever I was
going to make the leap out to LA but
then some psycho stuff took off and I
found my window of opportunity and I
clung on to that as much as I could I
still looked over you see and I made the
psycho series and you guys found me and
it took eight years eight years of
YouTube till I even had over a thousand
or 2,000 subscribers before I was even
making any money so that's a lot of
dedication and by no means is that mean
you guys have to put that much time into
it to be successful I just suck and you
guys I've seen people do it in a couple
months and and get a million Subs it's
happening all the time now I do think it
was a lot harder to grow then but that's
besides the point I also never really
tried to grow it was more just I made it
for me like I was saying before I made
these things for me to express myself
creatively it was never about getting
views what really got me going was I'd
say I'd make an episode of the game
which was a series before your guys time
maybe you went back and watched it but a
lot of it's copyright now that series
took 3 years and that thing had my heart
and uh we put a lot of work into it and
I would have a premere I have a Premiere
night every episode so episode one The
SE the series premiere would come out
and I'd have my family we'd all gather
around we'd watch it around the computer
with the lights off 10 minutes boom and
I'd love to gauge their reactions that
was enough for me I didn't care if it
got 10 views 20 views 30 views that had
been great but just to have that to see
their reactions and to know that I
created that and I expressed myself a
story that I wanted to share something
that I was struggling with or that I was
feeling and I could get it out there
into the world without you know feeling
weird or uncomfortable about it that was
awesome that's a win that's why I do
this stuff so then when it got to the
point where I graduated college I owed
$70,000 I didn't have that money I
wanted to be in Hollywood telling
stories and stuff and then I realized yo
PewDiePie made how much this person made
how much money and this is a few years
ago so it wasn't even like at its peak I
was like oh people are making money off
this [ __ ] let me give it a better shot
and then I got the brain injury and I
think a lot of you guys know this stuff
but um I remember my faith was pretty
broken cuz I quit my job at the bank and
um I went YouTube full-time and I
started doing videos every day and then
I got this really bad brain injury a
weekend and I thought well that was it I
guess this was not meant to be I just
gave myself a traumatic brain
injury I I should give up it is not in
the cards for Jesse Ridgeway this has
been a pipe dream my parents were right
my dad was right that's right I said my
dad was right yeah there's a lot of
Truth to everything guys I was like okay
my family's right this is just ludicrous
I should probably get a real job should
probably go back to working at the bank
or the plumbing shop
or mow Lawns for my dad or I don't know
hate myself for a bit and so I was like
a vegetable for my final semester in
college until I was like you know what
let's do another one of these stupid
Freak Out video and then boom they take
off and then boom a series who crazy uh
and that's a full journey and guys the
documentary is the only thing I think
that can do that justice as well as
behind the scenes cuz that that's a lot
better than me just trying to say it cuz
there's a couple years worth of time
that you guys don't know what real Jesse
was doing or going through um so I think
and don't worry guys I know I promise
it's coming it's coming it's finally
coming but when that happened um YouTube
for me has changed and my relationship
with videos has
changed uh and I cannot thank you guys
enough for finding
me and giving me this opportunity to
make content for you guys I still see
before when I used to make content I
used to make it for myself to express
myself
creatively now it's not really the case
anymore now I do it for you guys
and that has changed the product like if
you look at my videos a few years ago
and you look at my videos now they're
very different um obviously I wasn't
doing daily videos I think that's
probably the thing I hate most and it's
nothing against you guys I know you guys
want to keep be updated regularly but
I'll be honest there's a lot of days I
wake up and I and I want to put content
out for you guys but I'm like I'm not
feeling very motivated I don't have a
good idea it's very difficult to you
know consistently come up with creative
ideas ones that I feel passionate about
that I think you guys also share that
same passion so that's really one of the
biggest change changes that has happened
and and one that I've been struggling
with and I know I'm not required to do
daily videos I just know if I don't I
hear a lot and I don't know how some
YouTubers are but like just giving you
the honest truth is like I value every
single one of your guys' opinions
probably to my detriment where like you
know some people want new series some
people want real life videos some people
want challenges some people want pranks
some people want you know um more
streams and you know that's a struggle
that's a struggle I I I take everything
in into consideration and then I'm like
well what the do you want what do you
want and it's very difficult you know I
have one of the broadest demographics
out there um I have ages like 4 to 80
and that's no exaggeration I've seen it
I've seen it all through fan mail and
tweets and emails it is a crazy range so
to come up with content that satisfies
all of those and then also makes myself
happy cuz it's a it's a very uh very
stressful very stressful stuff but um I
wouldn't change it for the world and
don't think I'm complaining it's just uh
it's nice to voice how things have
changed over the years as a Creator the
things that I always come back to are
the stories and
um we've we've jumped around a lot from
story to story to story series to series
to series and it gets a little confusing
but guys just know that like I'm so
excited for 2017 like you don't even
know that character is such a good
character I cannot wait I mean there's a
slew of charact I cannot wait for 2017
to get here it it's almost like I'm
banking all my energy and all my
productivity and genius and everything
I'm saving it for 2017 because to be
honest I thought I would have a Break by
now I thought the doc would be out by
now and I could release behind the
scenes and take a chill pill so I could
start really writing and flushing this
thing out I've been writing regardless
but I thought I would have a little more
time so I could dedicate to this thing
because to tell a tell stories daily is
not an easy task and you know I do do
everything myself I write I film I edit
I act and and that's saying a lot
um
it's I I do love this this is just great
I love you guys this is cool I can't
believe I get to do this for a living
and and I think that's why I I do get
scared that I it's not going to be the
case someday that's probably why I beat
myself up so much um and and try to take
everyone's opinion into consideration
but uh it's a lot a lot goes through
your brain I remember when I
was I remember when I was at a smaller
subc I was like oh I so desperate I
remember when I did my 200 50k
motivational speech you guys can check
out that video it's one of my favorite
videos I made uh Jesse was feeling it
dude I was going off I was like 250k I
was like we are going to take over
YouTube and we are going to be strong we
are going to ride that bike down the
hill and we're we're not going to stop
pedaling Jesse was going off I was like
a motivational speaker that day
and and I had no clue what I even wanted
see that Jess I was like yo we got
numbers [ __ ] we're going big we're
going to have a million subs and I'm
going to make a lot of money and you're
going to watch it and love it and it's
like dud you don't get it you don't get
it here's the thing that I would love to
tell myself a few years ago um from
Jesse now nothing
changes and I I'll tell that to you guys
um that are that are aspiring YouTubers
that that think of me as this big big
YouTuber oh I'm a normal guy nothing
changes your life does not change yeah
you might have a little bit more money
yeah you might have followers and
subscribers and stuff but you
personally you're still the
same and that's one thing I wish I
understood I thought like I thought like
oh yo once I get a million subs or once
I get two minute one I I'll be like I'll
be I don't know I don't know what you
really think I'll be I'll be perfect
I'll be happy I'll be I'll be everything
but the truth is you still end up being
the same person and The Daily Grind the
the things that you're
doing are exactly the
same the only difference is I guess you
have a little bit of uh a little bit of
security you have a few notches in your
belt at this point but you still need
and want more it just never ends it's
just crazy guys it's a never- ending go
Gauntlet so I I I told myself to that I
would get back to this point but why I
didn't make a montage or have a bunch of
old clips and everything why I didn't
feel the need to do that because I've
done it so many times I know my history
and why do I know my history so well
it's
because as a YouTuber and a Creator I
always want to be
original I want to be I want to make my
own path I don't want to you know be I
don't want to be one of those click
baity like go with the trends whatever
you know it's it's very hard to to not
do that because you need to do that to
stay relevant and get the views but at
the same time I have to just keep
reminding myself I'm like
Jesse what what what do you what do you
care about more the fact that the psycho
series exist or that you you had a video
that got 10 million
views I'm happy that that the psycho
series existed not because it had a lot
of views but because it mattered a lot
it mattered a lot to me mattered a lot
to my family Mar a lot to my friends and
married a lot mared a lot to you guys
and that's that's what I got to keep
going back to is that kind of content
that resonates with people it has an
emotional impact a story some substance
and some characters and that's what I
want to work on and that's what I want
to work on going forward and if there's
ever lack in production of videos or you
just don't see stuff coming or you got a
video like this which seems pretty damn
boring and it's just Jesse talking he
does a brain deal in the beginning of it
just know that's cuz I'm kind of in like
a little cocoon phase I need to rest
relax until I get ready for the next big
thing um but yeah anyway gosh I keep I I
keep missing my point I know my past so
well because I I need to remember that
and hold on to it because I need to
never forget why I got into this
and that is the creative expression
behind it all
and that's why I do this I I have these
you know Dee rooted feelings that I know
a lot of people have and share and I
know a lot of people are struggling out
there and and I know why so many people
love the psycho series I understand that
I understand the psychology behind that
and I'm trying to really tap into that
and put it into future projects so
something out there something that I
create can help you guys and uh you can
relate to a character and see how they
deal with things and and and think about
that and so that's that's Jesse's
YouTube in 10 years it's it's wild it's
crazy dude 10 years like I it's not even
it doesn't even register it's just
another day it's like when I turn 24
it's like well cool man now what you're
still the same and it kind of goes back
to I was saying it's still the same it's
still the same stuff and you know what
it still gets me excited and and that's
what I keep holding on to is follow what
gets you excited if it gets you a little
bit nervous excited that's a good sign I
guess to conclude all this thank you
jugy so much for watching this video for
supporting me over the years for going
back and watching my old content I never
in a million years when I made the game
and it was getting like 200 views 300
views I never thought people years later
would go back and watch it and now each
episode has like thousands of views I
mean that that means so much to me you
have no idea I cannot thank you guys
enough for supporting me and my content
and um it's been an incredible 10 years
I know you just found me in the last one
or two but what do you say we have at
least another good five years would you
stick around for five more years I
promise I won't get stale I'm going to
be trying to innovate all right or even
10 years it's just I know I'll last the
question is will YouTube Last I know
I'll be always creating in some capacity
um and I just hope you guys follow me
thank you guys so much for everything if
you want to go back and watch some my
old videos like if there's ever a day
where you're just bored or you want to
learn more about me or see where I've
come from go go check my old skits and
old series and stuff and you may enjoy
that if you like some of the stuff
you've seen recently you may like like
that stuff I don't know all right Jay
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you enjoyed it I think tomorrow we'll
see Parker again and we'll get back to
living my life cuz I've been somewhat of
a Hermit the last couple days I felt
like but the hair is up now it's a
momentous occasion I'm feeling a little
better I should probably go upstairs and
get warm cuz it is freezing down here
and that's where's that spider at
anyways I love you Jo to death
cheers the 10 years on YouTube don't
forget pretend that's a drink but it's
not to keep it rigid