I am the mother of Hayden Hicks my son
who has been taken away for a year next
month um
for me getting hit on getting hit from
this father to my bedroom
door
and I opened up my door they asked me to
come downstairs and I opened actually
they opened the door for CPS CPS said
can I come in it was an emergency
response she was all alone she came in
she said she just wanted to talk to me
she wanted to help me with the
situation I told her I was totally
Cooperative I told her to come in I let
her know that me and my boyfriend had
got into an argument the pictures the
cops still were there and everything and
the cops and the worker walked outside
and left me in hidden inside my home
they came back in after it was probably
about like 10 minutes she asked me to
sign a safety plan and on that safety
plan it said to submit to random drug
testing to comply with all orders of CPS
and to um report any domestic violence
that was going on in the home I they
said if I didn't sign it that they were
going to remove hate him so I signed
yeah I signed my child away pretty
much the next
day I went drug
tested um while they were there I told
them look I I was going to test positive
for marijuana you know but I was that's
all that was going to be in my system I
showed him my recomend doctor's
recommendation and my
car and
um we were just unloading our
car I don't know it's two
women it was the Carolina Morales the
emergency response
worker and they came in and they said
they wanted to talk to me and Michael
separately so one talked to me and one
talked to him
they said well we would like for you to
leave the home and go to a shelter a
homeless shelter I said no I'm not
taking my son out of my four bedroom
home that where he's grew up in I'm not
I'm not going to go to a homeless
shelter and then they looked at Michael
and Michael said well no they said well
Michael then you need to leave that's
what they said and um Michael goes well
I don't have anywhere to go and
um they both looked at each
other and they said well then we taking
Hayden in the
custody and um Michael said no you know
like I'll leave I'll go I'll go to San
Diego my parents live in chil Vista they
can stay here and they looked at it at
me and said nope sorry options off the
table we're taking
haen they went outside and called the
police
they
came um to my door and they told me to
pack Hayden's stuff
oh so I went like got like all his juice
and
like his milk his cuz I had him on soy
milk and like certain things that he
liked a lot and put his blank in
everything like
my they they ripped him from my
arms I've been fighting for a year next
month on the 26th will be a year I've
completed their
parenting I've enrolled in all their
substance abuse treatments programs I've
done two hair follicle tests which both
showed positive for THC
that's it no other nothing I've I've
completed their psychological evaluation
and now I'm in treatment Mondays and
Wednesdays and I go to I go to my
individual
therapists they've given me six more
months of
reunification and the judge has ordered
me to stop smoking my medical
marijuana which there's no Nexus in
between them even taking my child and me
even smoking marijuana they didn't you
know they didn't even come to my house
and find a bong or weed or I wasn't
charged with driving Under the Influence
with my child in the car or I wasn't
charged with me was open and honest I
had nothing to hide I was telling them
the truth there was nothing I wasn't
doing anything wrong except
being
being in a relationship that was a
little bit dysfunctional so now I'm left
all by myself my family is
rued I'm all alone my son I wake up
every I wake up every morning to my
son's
crib and my like bra just going to I'm
going to wake up and he's going to be
there and he's been like through so much
like I
mean my son's been through so much four
different Foster
homes from a when they first took him he
went to a Spanish speaking lady that
couldn't even speak to me she couldn't
speak to me directly I I had to have an
interpreter for the 3 days later my
child looked like like a totally
different child I was like freaked out
like I like what did you do to my baby
like he was like from head to toe just
bumps so I took pictures in the room
they would put me in these little tiny
rooms and make us sit there for 4 hours
cuz that was ordered by the on the sixth
day it's my second visit and that's when
that rash
was that crazy R my child was in so much
pain I had to walk out and tell the hugs
Foster agency I you need to take my
child to see the
doctor he's it say just a totally
different child like uh the second
Foster mother that he got I thought oh
she's like a nice like little grandma
she told me that she made uh some like
stew or something and she had to force
feed my child because he wouldn't eat it
well obviously he didn't want that like
you don't have to force feed my child
and put him in a she like and I had what
else are you doing to my child she said
he was laying on the floor and kicking
at her and and she asked he asked she
asked him if you wanted to smack I've
never ever hit my child I've never my
child never left my side for 19 months I
cut his umbilical cord
like he never left my side nobody Babys
sat him not Grandma not like one cry
from him and like I was right there he
he never he's my
life
you see him you guys see him that's my
baby and I get to see him at the mall I
get to see him at the mall for a year a
year straight for 2 hours a
visit it's right here you see that
that's his
bed he been in my room for for a year
now
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oh I know I want to come home
huh have a
kiss have a kiss
byebye kiss
give momy a kiss
byebye give me a
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kiss I come see you tomorrow
okay possibly let me
kisse byebye I love you bye see you
tomorrow
M bye I love you
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